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OKAY.
So last night was weigh in number three... I've still lost on every weigh in... but last night I only lost .6 so I'm down 5.8 lbs all together. I really felt like last week was a crappy week as far as the diet goes. I really need to plan everything out.
I also decided this is not going to be just a weight loss blog but my own personal blog. So who's excited!!!?!?!?!
Jose got me flowers on Friday... the cutest thing ever... I love that man.
He has been doing weight watchers with me and I hope he doesnt' mind me sharing this, but he has lost 9 lbs so far! I'm so proud of him... he's working really hard. He helps me a lot.
I'm going to make it a goal to wake up at 620 tomorrow to go running.
I'm supposed to get our Verizon phones today at work so I keep looking out the window every time I hear a truck go by. I feel like a little kid on Christmas! Haha. but I am getting an EnV2 so I'm wayyy excited.
This weekend was my first weekend at the Photography job. It was amazing. I learned so much.... I'm really excited to be doing this. This will really help with my plans for the future of opening my own photo and make up studio. I really need to do some studying up and maybe find some classes around here.
So, I have a lot of spuradic (sp?) thoughts going on in this particular blog, but I just recently decided it was an everything in one blog, so I am just trying to put all my thoughts down.
Jose's mom is amazing. I love her so much! She has been really supportive of us and helps us out however she can, and I am always happy to do whatever I can for her. I consider them my family. I am so happy I can't even explain... Especially in a relationship like ours, different ethnicities, religions, etc, just everything pointing against things working out... our respective families have been more than accepting and I just wish they knew how happy it makes us. That's so important to me. But Jose is such a wonderful person, who couldn't help but love him? =)
I'm really excited to have him meet the rest of my family, especially my mom and brothers and cousins. Ryan and Tyler I think you guys would get along with him great- he's a big star wars nerd =) And he's really into computer/business stuff. I'm really glad that your families have blogs also, because I really love seeing how the babies are growing and how your beautiful families are doing =) so before this blog turns into a shout out... I should prolly get back to work but there is a chance that I may post again later today <3

cookie cookie cookie it's good enough for me

So today is Friday. I'm changing my name back to Meyer people! I already have it on my license, and got the bank account updated and I am going into the Social Security office to make it official!
I got a new job!!!! I will be a photographer! How exciting! I'm definately curious to see what this will bring for me.
I'm also working at the office managing, but this photography job will be part time.
Yesterday I got the best compliment ever!
I made dinner last night, some roasted potatoes and chicken, and a bunch of people came over and they really liked it... so that was pretty awesome- something I'm not so insecure about any more. I used to HATE to cook. =)

hooray!

so last night.. I went to my weight watchers meeting. The second meeting so far. I lost three pounds this week! I was definately suprised, especially because I have been so lax this past week. But I have made an effort to be more mindful of what I take into my body. I want to exercise. I have been thinking about going to a gym... just don't know if I feel like paying 40 dollars a month! ha. I have to get a new phone this month and it's gonna be 200. Three pounds seems so insignificant... but it's definately what I needed to keep myself motivated. I feel like I can do this. Although I feel like this diet has put me more on edge. I'm just so stressed out all the time and I've found myself getting irritated at things I wouldn't normally get irritated at. I feel the same feelings I think a lot of other people feel in the struggle to lose weight- I just want it gone NOW and I would be happy. I just look in the mirror sometimes and feel gross. Not attractive, not likeable, just gross. One of the main reasons I'm doing this is so I don't feel that way anymore. Usually I'm not so hard on myself but Ithink with the numbers of how much I weigh constantly on my mind it's making it hard to stay positive. A lot of dieting is mental. I know that.