Hooooly Smokes

Okay. I am lame. I can't keep up with this blog thing! But I'm going to TRY to be a little more adament about it. Notice how I said TRYYY.
So... I am just getting over being sick.. That's been fun.
Working lots.
The weather is getting cold.
I can't wait to see my family!!!!!!! Christmas is just around the corner. That means I need to get shoppin!
What else.. I went out to eat last night with Jose and our friend and I FELT LIKE I WAS GONNA DIE which threw me into a health concious mode. I seriously uttered the words, "I'm NEVER EATING ANYTHING UNHEALTHY AGAIN" hahahah we all know how that goes down.... it just doesn't. Haha. but my plan is to be more health concious and EXERCISE. WHY CAN'T I JUST GET IT RIGHT!??!!? I just keep getting fatter. Some days my attitude sucks, but I try to stay positive. It's not easy, but I keep thinking... how awesome will it be to actually at least fit my clothes again??? hahaa.
feels like a nice cold day to stay inside. I don't have any plans this weekend. I kinda want to do an activity. Or go hang out or something. Anywho.
I'll try really hard to be more frequent with the posting, and even try to post pictures on here. I actually have one of jose that I want to put up, but I have to wait till I get home cos I can't put it on the computer at work.
Until then..
I leave you in the utmost anticipation.... wait for it....

bippity boppity boo

OKAY.
So last night was weigh in number three... I've still lost on every weigh in... but last night I only lost .6 so I'm down 5.8 lbs all together. I really felt like last week was a crappy week as far as the diet goes. I really need to plan everything out.
I also decided this is not going to be just a weight loss blog but my own personal blog. So who's excited!!!?!?!?!
Jose got me flowers on Friday... the cutest thing ever... I love that man.
He has been doing weight watchers with me and I hope he doesnt' mind me sharing this, but he has lost 9 lbs so far! I'm so proud of him... he's working really hard. He helps me a lot.
I'm going to make it a goal to wake up at 620 tomorrow to go running.
I'm supposed to get our Verizon phones today at work so I keep looking out the window every time I hear a truck go by. I feel like a little kid on Christmas! Haha. but I am getting an EnV2 so I'm wayyy excited.
This weekend was my first weekend at the Photography job. It was amazing. I learned so much.... I'm really excited to be doing this. This will really help with my plans for the future of opening my own photo and make up studio. I really need to do some studying up and maybe find some classes around here.
So, I have a lot of spuradic (sp?) thoughts going on in this particular blog, but I just recently decided it was an everything in one blog, so I am just trying to put all my thoughts down.
Jose's mom is amazing. I love her so much! She has been really supportive of us and helps us out however she can, and I am always happy to do whatever I can for her. I consider them my family. I am so happy I can't even explain... Especially in a relationship like ours, different ethnicities, religions, etc, just everything pointing against things working out... our respective families have been more than accepting and I just wish they knew how happy it makes us. That's so important to me. But Jose is such a wonderful person, who couldn't help but love him? =)
I'm really excited to have him meet the rest of my family, especially my mom and brothers and cousins. Ryan and Tyler I think you guys would get along with him great- he's a big star wars nerd =) And he's really into computer/business stuff. I'm really glad that your families have blogs also, because I really love seeing how the babies are growing and how your beautiful families are doing =) so before this blog turns into a shout out... I should prolly get back to work but there is a chance that I may post again later today <3

cookie cookie cookie it's good enough for me

So today is Friday. I'm changing my name back to Meyer people! I already have it on my license, and got the bank account updated and I am going into the Social Security office to make it official!
I got a new job!!!! I will be a photographer! How exciting! I'm definately curious to see what this will bring for me.
I'm also working at the office managing, but this photography job will be part time.
Yesterday I got the best compliment ever!
I made dinner last night, some roasted potatoes and chicken, and a bunch of people came over and they really liked it... so that was pretty awesome- something I'm not so insecure about any more. I used to HATE to cook. =)

hooray!

so last night.. I went to my weight watchers meeting. The second meeting so far. I lost three pounds this week! I was definately suprised, especially because I have been so lax this past week. But I have made an effort to be more mindful of what I take into my body. I want to exercise. I have been thinking about going to a gym... just don't know if I feel like paying 40 dollars a month! ha. I have to get a new phone this month and it's gonna be 200. Three pounds seems so insignificant... but it's definately what I needed to keep myself motivated. I feel like I can do this. Although I feel like this diet has put me more on edge. I'm just so stressed out all the time and I've found myself getting irritated at things I wouldn't normally get irritated at. I feel the same feelings I think a lot of other people feel in the struggle to lose weight- I just want it gone NOW and I would be happy. I just look in the mirror sometimes and feel gross. Not attractive, not likeable, just gross. One of the main reasons I'm doing this is so I don't feel that way anymore. Usually I'm not so hard on myself but Ithink with the numbers of how much I weigh constantly on my mind it's making it hard to stay positive. A lot of dieting is mental. I know that.

starting a food journal

So I was extremely lame in giving up so easily...


but double the effort now...


I'm getting back into gear, with the help of my tremendously amazing boyfriend. =)

I have to yell a lot, but it's for a good cause.

SO in an effort to be more valiant about this crap, I am going to start a food journal.

And I'm gonna do it online. SO- Thank yous go to

Jose

My mom

Heather

They are the ones who have been most supportive in this lifestyle change.

Thank you so much!!!!

on to the food journal

Coke Zero

Cheerios

1% milk

an apple

I need to drink water but would you believe there isn't any in here?!?!?! I talked to my boss about getting a water cooler... we'll see how fast that happens... hopefully soon!

I take advair for emphazema.

sooo...

this is my first post on blogger.. and I know the most people that are going to read this are shane and heather. haha. 

So, I just tried to sign up with ChaCha as a guide... and I failed the "easy" test. I got really nervous for some reason and I started freaking out hahaha. I guess I'll just stick to Yahoo! Answers.

anyways...

so maybe this blogging thing will be a good idea, although I won't have much to say because my life is pretty boring. hehe. 

So a little synopsis of what's been going on...

I've been playing in the make-up lately. I LOVE IT! It's honestly the ONE thing I feel I am talented at. I'm thinking about starting a business which details will be left off of this blog, as I believe it is public=) 

for now I am going to be doing free work, until I can get everything together.

Right now I am so strapped for cash BUT I am PAYING MY BILLS. I know this sounds really lame but I am proud of myself. It has taken me toooooo long to learn to do it. That's another reason I am so thankful for Jose. He teaches me so much. Although I feel bad because his credit is like 1000 times better than mine and I am gonna affect his in a not so great way...but that's a lesson I don't want to re-learn.

I have been addicted to watching things with british people in it. SMASHING, I say! haha I love it. for instance, How Clean is Your House? FABULOUS show! And this girl I believe her name is Lauren... she is amazing, I found out about her on You Tube, and apparantly she is famous now! I'm very inspired.